Stalling Tactics

Ballet Shoes

I recently, seriously contemplated going back to dance class. I’ll admit that I don’t exactly remember how long it has been– 7 or 8 years, probably– but over the last couple of weeks, I’ve thought about it more and more. Naturally, this means I haven’t done it.

You see, I am starting to employ some fairly elaborate stalling tactics that have thus far kept me out of the studio. The most successful one being that I couldn’t possibly go back to class until I get back in shape. That’s right, I want to exercise before I start to exercise.

I do have some very real concerns. Living a largely sedentary lifestyle means that jumping back into a two hour class will take a significant toll on my body. My knees have always been my weak point. After so many years, starting again in a mixed beginner/intermediate class might be requiring more mental and physical recall than I’m capable of right now.

But when you get right down to it, I’m stalling. There’s a certain degree of fear involved. A room full of strangers who could be judging not only my missing technique, but my waistline, isn’t really a welcoming image. Actually, a room full of strangers rarely is to me. Fear of disappointment and a demonstration of exactly how much time has gone by are also swirling in the mix.

So, I stall. It’s like refusing to online date until you’ve lost enough weight/gotten a new haircut/dyed your hair and finally taken a “good” picture. Sure, you want to put your best foot (or face) forward, but the possibility of disappointment and hurt are there, too. Sometimes you just have to take a deep breath and do it (declares the woman still sitting at her desk).

 

4 comments on “Stalling Tactics”

  1. KateDating

    LOL!! I did unearth my ballet slippers– no small victory since we just moved.

  2. Dee Murray

    I say, leave the past in the nostalgic past…it’s something that you remember fondly and loved a lot, but if you didn’t sign up right away to go, it’s time to give it a lovely mental funeral and just walk away. Because I think this is the third or fourth time (once including a new year’s resolution about dance class!) that you have “decided” to get back up on pointe – Once a dancer, always a dancer, yes. However, sometimes I dance around my living room in my tutu. Doesn’t make me Madonna…never will… 😉 And there is that: You can dance around in your living room too!

  3. KateDating

    LOL!! Oh, Working Girl… I just wished I liked other forms of exercise because I really do need to get a grip on the old body mass here.

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