Sometimes in the pursuit of new, I discover the strange—not strange outside of myself necessarily, but inside. I decided that yesterday’s new was going to be a writing webinar. It was informative. It was useful. It was nerve-wracking.
Yeah. I had all these crazy jitters before starting the webinar. I could chalk it up to unrecognized excitement, but it really just seemed like I was nervous about the webinar—a WEBINAR PEOPLE. An event that I could walk away from at any time, in the comfort of my own home where no one else could see me, made me anxious.
I have no idea why I reacted that way. Maybe the possibility of having to interact during the call with strangers set me off (I used to get nervous before I had to speak during weekly staff meetings at work, too, and I knew most of those people). Perhaps knowing that I had to submit something at the end of the call for critique made me all quivery—though I feel like the submission needs work and the critique can only help.
It’s bizarre. I know it isn’t rational in any way. And yet, when I sat down in front of the computer yesterday to start the class, the butterflies were racing through me. I can’t imagine what I’d be like in a situation where the other people in the class could actually see me.
Do you have situations where you are irrationally nervous? Do you just plow through, or do you make changes so it won’t happen again? Inquiring minds want to know.